On the Brink.......

After six weeks of presentations, packaging, market research, product development, etc......I reached an agreement in principle to make, market, and operate a line of male products for a famous NBA superstar. I had been working with his manager, and we shared different visions, but were able to meet in the middle. I wrote up a contract, accepting 25% of a company that I started, operated, and lost sleep over. Two days later they backed out. I was very suprised, but not disappointed. I was giving up too much to begin with, and now I know I can do it with any other athlete.

There is a voice inside all of us that we would like to get rid of. Its the voice of self doubt and pessism. Its the voice that keeps telling me to quit and go get a job. Its the voice that tells me that I can't succeed, that there is too much mountain going uphill. I've heard this voice in the past...my senior year in college, when I took 6 full time classes, worked part time, and completed a full time internship. I almost lost my mind. And I heard it again, when in my final year of my MBA, I worked full time, went to school part-time, had a wife and one child at home, and travelled for business a few times a month.

I'm lucky, I'm able to turn the volume down on that voice and turn it up on the voice that tells me to keep going, not to quit, to keep pushing, to keep striving. It developed this way while jogging. The self doubt voice is for losers. You have to keep focused on what you want, and keep moving in that direction.

Like Ali McBeal, I have a theme song. I keep singing in my head:
"I'm the cream of the crop, I rise to the top" from Jump Around. I've heard of political prisoners in solitary confinement that sang the same song to keep them going the entire time they were in solitary. Aren't we all in solitary more or less?